I remember vividly being at home when I was 9 or 10 years old, trying to do my homework for school. I had to write a text and apparently I just couldn’t. There was something deep inside of me feeling helpless because I thought I didn’t have what it took to write that text, even though I was one of the best students in class with the best grades. Call it lack of creativity or lack of intelligence or whatever crossed my mind back then, but the thing is, that that feeling stood with me long. Too long. Actually I still experience it sometimes.
I’ve read that many people have this feeling of not being enough or experiencing a lack of an inherent part of yourself to do or achieve something. So maybe you can relate to this.
From an outsider perspective you wouldn’t tell, because I was the one helping my class mates, I was getting the best grades, and later in life I even wrote a book (one of the ironies of life), blogs and some songs.
Accomplishments sometimes just feel good the moment we achieve them. Depending on our past and our mindset we can quickly forget that awesome achievement and keep letting our “inner gremling” have the lead voice on the song playing in our head. Over and over. (Side note: the “inner gremling” is a useful term passed on to me by my coach to reference our limiting beliefs)
By the way, if the volume of your inner critic is louder than you would like it to be, I encourage you to read an exceptional and practical book on this topic: The Voice of Your Dreams: Turn Down the Voices of Limitation and Turn Up the Volume of Success.
I recently read it and now I’m reading it for a second time, spending more time on each chapter answering the useful questions that the author Aaron Anastasi shares to help us quiet limiting voices that may be preventing and blocking our progress.
Actually this is how I came with the idea of applying 30-day challenges to books. Since I love reading and learning I usually read a book and the day after I’ve finished it, a new book is begging me to open the cover and start reading it. The problem is, by doing so I don’t internalize the concepts of the book and its teachings. I read many self-development books so there are usually many ideas to think about, practice, create habits…If I start a new book right after finishing one, the concepts and ideas that I wanted to think about and apply will get buried by new concepts and ideas.
I’ve decided to bring purpose to what I do. So reading these kind of books for the sake of reading, though very enjoyable to me, is not the best use of my time. So from now on I want to spend the time needed to internalize the ideas and apply the concepts that I want to work on, before starting a new book.
Right now I’m working on Aaron’s book mentioned above, and it’s helping a lot. I’ll spend this first 30-day book challenge applying the concepts of that book to my life and see what happens.
Let’s the game begin!
Next time I’ll dive deeper into the “I’m not enough” and victim mindset and what I’m doing to overcome it.